That feeling you get when you stop trying to get what you want, and before you know it, you realize you had it all along…
When Things Go Terribly Wrong
I need a copilot and you look nice enough
I could use some company right now but it’s 2:30 am and I hate you….
I only wanted to spend the rest of my life with you so I could watch you slowly die
Love is an illusion that people want to believe in to deal with others people’s shit
He cheated on me
You have to believe in something right?
We all believe in something… We all have our weaknesses…
(Source: singlaughl0ve, via zippaloo)
I should have got homework done today but it’s hard to see through the tears… It’s hard to focus… I have no 1, my support system has diminished… No boyfriend, no friends… I’m alone… Completely and utterly alone… I just wanna curl up and die… I’m giving up on everything I’ve fought so hard for… I’m done fighting… God doesn’t hear me… No one does… I could end it all and my memory would fade into the background… The only thing that’s stopping me is my mom… I know it’d devastate her… I can’t break my family like that… But I wonder… How easy would it be to let go? How easy would it be to ignite the inevitable? They’d probably use this as evidence to say I was disturbed and crying out for help, and people will wonder why they didn’t see the signs… But no one will come to my funeral… I don’t know anyone… People die everyday… People give up all the time…
I hate meaning nothing to the one person that means the most to me… I hate you
Done
And you fucking wonder why I don’t ask for help… Because when I do, when I need it the most I’m shit out of luck… My fucking toes broken, my brother is hopped up on meds a step away from being hospitalized, and my dads disabled… How the fuck are we supposed to move everything out of the house by Saturday into an apartment? Hire someone?! Oh yeah did I mention we’re broke?
I’m starting to think Im accident prone because as soon as I’m left alone for any length of time I unintentionally induce harm onto myself… Thank god they are flesh wounds but in starting to think my poor little foot won’t be able to take this…. So far a TV stand fell on it and I’ve just rammed it into a vacuum cleaner….
